Authentically me

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From the time I was a wee girl, being on TV was all I ever wanted. It’s cute when you’re a kid, but as you get older, people have no problem vomiting all over your dreams with their pessimism and their own issues of inadequacy and insecurities.

For instance:

Them: “What do you want to be when you grow up, Kristina?”
Me: “I want to move to Hollywood and be on TV.”
Them: “There’s a lot of competition out there. Not many people make it.”
Them: “That’s never going to happen.”
Them: “If you leave, you’ll be back. They always come back.”
Them: “You’ll be pregnant before you get out of high school.”
Them: “People like us don’t do things like that.”

You all know who you are but no hard feeling though ’cause it was my “I’ll show you!’ mentality that kept me going all the way to Hollywood to interview George Clooney on the red carpet…on TV.

But this story doesn’t end with my victory dance, not yet anyway. I wish I could say that I was completely unaffected by what I had been told over and over that as a poor Mexican kid growing up in cowtown USA with a mom on welfare and a dad in jail that I wouldn’t amount to anything. I wish I could say that I rose above it—left those bull shit comments in the small town I left behind. Nope, those negative comments found hiding places all through my psyche for just their perfect time to come out and fuck with me.

People ask all the time how I managed to get so far in my career so quickly and my answer is always simply “By the Grace of God.” He set me on a path, intent on my succeeding. He gave me a confidence and a fire that burned deep down and whispered to me that one day all my dreams would come true. My job was to believe it, pursue it, achieve it, and do it all with unwavering faith. And I did. As a result, all of my wildest dreams were coming true.

That realization came to me one day on the E! News set, side by side with some of the best in the biz, money, status, all of my dreams unfolding as God had promised…and I panicked.

While I did well at E! and was really good at my job, I lived in fear that I would be ‘found out’; that the powers-that-be would realize that they’d made a horrible mistake; that I was out of my league and that I didn’t belong. They’d realize that I was just a welfare kid from the sticks who would never be more than just a welfare kid from the sticks just like all those people back home said I was.

This is the fear that I felt for the entire six years while I was at E!. To be clear, nothing was ever done to me to make me feel this way. There were instances when others would get promoted over me but instead of insisting I get my shot, try to prove myself worthy as I had done before to get to this point in my career, I just put my head down, tried not to make any noise, and just hoped that no one would notice that they’d accidentally just renewed my contract.

It wasn’t until I left E! that I truly understood how I had been self-sabotaging my own career and if I didn’t get my mind straight, then I would never appreciate my accomplishments for what they were — gifts that God had promised me. It has taken a lot of soul searching, church, and prayer to work past these feelings of inadequacy–and I still work through them every day. But I have no doubt that God intended I walk through this and get through this for one reason and one reason only: He ain’t done with me yet.


Impostor syndrome (also known as impostor phenomenonfraud syndrome or the impostor experience) is a psychological pattern in which people doubt their accomplishments and have a persistent, often internalized fear of being exposed as a “fraud”.
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    Tiff Hester

    I applaud your bravery 👏🏼
    I have a horrible memory but there is one thing I do remember about you; you always called your shot! You said from the time I met you what you were going to do with your life.
    I have always admired that kind of tenacity.
    Being vulnerable is soooo hard. Thank you for sharing a piece of your story.
    Keep on keeping on.
    Gods not done yet!

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    Amen sister! Good stuff! Proud of you! You’ve come a long way from Great Day SA! Well, haven’t we all lol!

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    daniel gomez

    Keep up the great work!! Enjoyed you on E News!

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    Cody and Kristen B.

    So freaking awesome Kristina! So proud to call you a friend and so excited for what God is doing in your life!!!

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      Kristina Guerrero

      Thank you my dear friends. I believe God brought me to ACC and to you!

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    Love this!!! Talk about igniting that inspiration to say fuck it and fuck them, I’m going to kick this in the ass and show them nay sayers!!! On another note, don’t think for a second that your littl cousins (🙋🏽‍♀️ Like me) weren’t always watching you. We, well I, admire you for what you did and have done. You’re the game changer and the one who has broken generational curses. We see you, I see you, Niy DEFINITELY sees you, so thank you for allowing God to use you in ways you may not have even noticed. Love you!!! And thank you for not giving up and more than anything, thank you for showing us how NOT to give up. And thank you for the recent advice! It’s go time!!! Love you!!!

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